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I am so relieved to have received a diagnosis, even though my worst symptoms are behind me (or have taken a pause). With that, an update:
This is now starting to feel real real, in a great way. I'm starting to see baby growing (without the ultrasound). I'm commiserating with other soon-to-be moms. BC and I have picked out names and have started planning for the near future and baby's soon-to-be needs. I'm starting to believe that this is good and this is happening.
I'm currently in Hawaii counting down the days to tell my parents. I'm currently 16 weeks on the nose. We arrived last Wednesday; today is Friday, and we're going to tell them on Sunday! It's become difficult to hide my belly (sometimes... sometimes my tummy seems to deflate). Sunday can't come soon enough. Meanwhile, I'm taking notice of all these last precious moments of my current lifestyle--childfree, carefree, on vacation, with nothing to worry about except work and school. BC, the sibs, and I still come and go as we please--doing what we want, eating what we want, going where we want, whenever we want, for however long we want. These days are numbered.
Luckily, many of my symptoms have faded. I'm not gagging twelve times a day, I'm keeping food down, and I can eat most foods. I still feel like I can smell anything and everything. I still get fatigued. My mood is not as high as it was at times pre-pregnancy, but it's not super low or particularly flat as it was during that bout of depression. My memory feels pretty foggy at times. I have such vivid dreams that I sometimes wake up crying from something horrible that happens in my dreams. I have to pee ALL. THE. TIME. My weight fluctuates +3 lbs in a day. I haven't put on much, if any weight compared to pre-pregnancy (at most, I've equaled my pre-pregnancy peak weight of 123 lbs., at least, I've weighed in at 115 lbs., a weight that I'd had difficultly getting down to pre-pregnancy).
Things to do in the coming months:
- Tell Mom and Dad
- Tell BC's mom and dad
- Look into Iceland
- Look into Cancun
- Tell my friends
- Tell BC's friends
- Plan BC's bday (and get his gift!)
- Hawaii trip #2
- Start gathering [frugal] baby items
- Get a bridal dress for Tin's wedding
- Plan two baby showers
Amidst that:
- Grade Finals
- Plan Semester 2 - Units, Learning Targets, Materials, Assessments
- Finish annotated biblio
- Register for SFSU Spring 2020
- Centering pregnancy appointments
- Bloodwork
- 2nd thyroid follow-up appointment
- 20-week ultrasound
- Reach coaching
- MWF hip hop classes
- TuThSa yoga
- Su cycling
- Gather data
- Write thesis
- Attend research groups meetings
- Prepare for last weeks of semester (Study Guide, Final)
- GRADUATE
- Tin & Paul's Wedding
- BABY
Summer:
- Baby bonding time!
Fall 2020 - Spring 2020 (and for next 10 years..???):
- Teach 2-3 classes, 3 days per week
2020 - baby born
2021 - baby is 1 y.o. (June), (Sept) get preg
2022 - baby is 2 y.o., baby born
2023 - baby is 3 y.o., baby is 1 y.o.
2024 - baby is 4 y.o., baby is 2 y.o. (June), (Sept) get preg
2025 - baby is 5 y.o. (start Kinder), baby is 3 y.o., baby born
2026 - baby is 6 y.o. (start 1st), baby is 4 y.o., baby is 1 y.o.
2027 - baby is 7 y.o. (start 2nd), baby is 5 y.o. (start Kinder), baby is 2 y.o.
2028 - baby is 8 y.o. (start 3rd), baby is 6 y.o. (start 1st), baby is 3 y.o.
2029 - baby is 9 y.o. (start 4th), baby is 7 y.o. (start 2nd), baby is 4 y.o.
2030 - baby is 10 y.o. (start 5th), baby is 8 y.o. (start 3rd), baby is 5 y.o. (start kinder)
One Day:
- Live abroad with the kids (Japan? Iceland? Philippines? Europe?)
- Get my PhD (5-7 years of my life)
- Become a professor
- Live in HI
- Live near family
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