Medication has worked so far, my baseline feels calm and normal. I feel appreciative of my baby. I feel energized to take care of him, I feel able to solve problems and block out stressors.
I experienced a lot of traumatic events from the night of May 29-June 1.
I will list these out later.
Good:
Dr. Allyse Ishino
The nurses
Brian
Getting medication
People who calmed me down: John Hunte, Michelle, Sandra, Rosesnna, Manilla, B??
The social workers
All of these people were able to “be” with me emotionally. Even though it’s their job to deal with logistics, I felt emotionally held by so many people. They told me to breathe through the contractions. They gave me visualizations. They kept eye contact with me when I started to spiral out. They held my hand.
6/3 5:12am
Feeding. Is the world burning down around me?
Keeping my baseline at 5 for Theo.
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